(Written Friday, June 24, 2016)
My right knee has been bad for a long time. In it I have not only severe arthritis but Paget’s disease. This is a double whammy for pain. So I’m finally going to get a knee replacement.
See, your bones are always replacing old bone tissue with new tissue. In Paget’s, “there is an abnormal breakdown of bone tissue in specific areas. This is followed by abnormal bone formation. The new area of bone is larger, but weaker. The new bone is also filled with new blood vessels… [t]his results in deformity of the affected bones.” (Medline Plus)
My right knee is grossly deformed. It and the left knee look like they belong to two different people. Continue reading
A tribute to Dr. Seuss
A doctor SOON I have to see
But where’s the ring with my car key?
I had to wash my favorite jacket
And my key ring was in the pocket
I can’t remember where I put it
And doctor’s too far off to foot it
Now all my keys are off in limbo
I wrack my brain with arms akimbo
I did not put them in a box
I did not give them to a fox
I did not put them on the piano
I did not squish them in a b’nana
They are not on the dining table
I did not give them to Clark Gable
I did not hide them by a package
I did not put them in some sackage
After several days of fluctuating moods and anxiety, I thought I would write a blog called “What Is Right and What Is Wrong.” But as soon as I started thinking of things that are “right” about me at this moment, they were all “nots.” Things like:
- I am not huddled in bed all day.
- I am not living in filth.
- I am not crippled by anxiety.
As you see, my mind immediately picked “right” things that were negative wrongs.
I can’t say:
- I have a positive outlook all day.
- My home is clean.
- I am free of anxiety.
Instead, the initial “rights” all have a “wrong” associated with them:
- I’m not huddled in bed all day, but my moods are switching frequently between depressed and decent.
- I’m not living in filth, but my house is messy and badly needs a thorough cleaning.
- I’m not crippled by anxiety, but I’m definitely having problems with it.
It’s really easy to think of “wrongs”:
- I drink way too much Frappuccino, often to the exclusion of any solid food all day.
- I smoke WAY too much (up to 3 packs a day).
- I am 70+ pounds overweight and am doing nothing about it.
- I make no effort to exercise.
- I still don’t open and deal with mail regularly.
- I can get things clean, but I can’t keep them clean (like my desk. It took me two days to trash it from being completely cleared off).
- My diet is very, very bad for a diabetic.
It’s very hard to think of “rights” that aren’t negatives:
- I take good care of my cats.
- I’ve kept my closets pretty well-organized the way the professional organizers did them.
- I take my meds on time.
Things that are right about a person should be better than just “not wrong.” And while a little more thinking does yield things that are really right, like “I love my children and they love me,” what springs to mind first is always the most revealing.
Tomorrow my mood may be worse. Or better. I’ve been cycling every day or two. Depending on the day’s mood, my responses to this exercise might be different. It’s scary to think that they might be the same.